When I was a child, I dreamed:
- A Peaceful World
- A Great Man
- A Kind Person
- (A Life-Winner)
When I was a schoolkid, I loved to:
- Play games
- Read books and comics
- Watch cartoons
- Learning
- Share my kindness to others (show-ing off)
When I was in secondary 1 - 3, I faced:
- Problems adjusting to new places..
- Emotional control problems.
- Facing challenges. Face forward.
- Myself. My limitations.
When I was in secondary 4-5:
Home is no longer a home.
I am heart-broken.
But I am loved.
I learn to love others.
I shut myself into a magical closet.
I want to be a "better man"
I don't want to be a father like my Dad. (拋妻棄子)
UEA.
I am in loved.
Now.
I am in loved.
I need to build my own home. Remember the houses you have lost/left, and go back, to find your Good Souls/Angels there.
I hate the quickness, rushing, "I AM LIFE WARRIOR" feelings of Hong Kong.
But I care about those who cared about me.
I embrace life.
I fear death. But I will embrace my own death.
I hate funerals. I can't understand them. I shouldn't cry in a funeral. I don't want to feel angry and mad. It drives me crazy and nuts.
I am in pain. But I will be fine.
I don't want to be a prince or princess anymore. I am creative. I need to build my own shelter and haven. Not in Hong Kong.
I am trying very very hard to take good care of myself.
I dislike arguing, especially heated one, those that make you mad and angry. I enjoy discussing the future. To make our dreams come true.
I like writing. It helps me to organise difficult things. I am good at doing "homework" and "housework". Maybe? But it is hard to do both at the same time (soft laughter)
I like softness. I need security. I am locking up my "black history". I won't be a perfect person. We all have sins.
Wrath. Greed. Pride.
Lust. Jealousy/Envy. Gluttony.
Sloth.
But we can embrace the seven archangels.
Gabriel. (日曜日)
Michael. (月曜日)
Raphael. (火曜日)
Uriel. (水曜日)
Raguel. (木曜日)
Remiel/Phanuel. (金曜日)
Sariel. (土曜日)
Beware of Lucifer, the fallen angel.
Beware of the tenth circle of inferno: DAMNed Lies.
Do not betray yourself or/and the people who loves/loved.
Do not trust Statistical Data completely. Do some research before making an conclusion. Be the Scientist and the Researcher.
Be kind to children, as they are the supports/pillars of our future.
Lay good soil. Plant good seeds. Sprinkle sufficient water, lest your drown the seed/saplings.
Let the seed grows into a strong but kind tree. Cut away Dark branches.
Let your flower blossoms. Snatch away those flowers that are smelly, lest they are ill and damage the trunk.
Do not condemn yourself. Try not to damn others. Learn the meanings of the words and symbols carefully. Beware of your sins.
Build your own home. A golden rectangle, with an isosceles triangles.
Fix the emotional/spiritual/physical damage if your home is broken/shattered/damaged. Maybe. Maybe not. One's decision.
Ryan, "the little prince/le petit prince", had many dreams.
He had many travelling.
He leapt from his lonely planet to a new place. A desert.
Find a oasis. Find a wood. Find a Father. Find a Mother. Find your Partner. Find your Child.
Steps by steps, rest peacefully when you feel tiredness. Do Suitable exercises, while aware of your limitations. You deserve a healthy lifestyle.
Keep it up.
Be determined with the dreams you loved and the creatures you love.
Forgive the monsters. Forget them. Have mercy/be merciful.
Pacify/Placate your friends and families.
Treasure your time and gems. Use them well.
Love yourself continuously. Forgive those who hate you. Just leave them alone, till they come back to you.
Good luck and best wishes to you.
Good day to you, Ryan.
Take good care of yourself.
25/4/2017