My regrets regarding my upbringing

This journal focus on the training I had during my studies in secondary school and university.

Between secondary form 1 and 3, I began to be interested in the Physical Science. It's ok actually, because I am good at logical thinking, and I did very well in Maths Physics Chemistry Biology.

But I had had some unfortunate incidence in these years. I disappointed some teachers. Both scolded me severely, such that I felt being misunderstood. I learnt to avoid "getting hurt" by avoiding conflicts with others. By doing this, I was actually widening the gaps between me and my peers or my teachers. So I never was able to have "constructive communications" with them.

I started to be scared of general social interaction, and this inability to communicate well snowball itself, such that I was once diagnosed as having Asperger's Syndrome when I was 16.

But we did not do much about it, not until I was having major problems while I worked in the society.

When I was applying for my bachelor studies, I haven't given deep nor serious thoughts on working in the society, because I was not good at social interaction in general. I faced tremendous disappointments and frustrations when I failed or had unpleasant social events.

Really wished I had thought more about my career
Really wished I had earlier intervention with my social limitations

So...at least I hope the future generations wouldn't repeat my mistakes, but hey, history repeat itself and humankind is so ignorant or stupid lol